In balance

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Do you ever feel as if the world is slightly tilted to one side and you are using all this extra muscle to stay upright, but it’s not enough of a tilt that you actually realize it until your muscles get tired and you think -yeah, this has been a lot of effort lately, what’s up with that? I had been feeling this but hadn’t put much thought into it until my sister proclaimed on Facebook that her stress levels were off the chain, and my cousin Lisa commented saying that it was something in the moon and October and the star alignment. I don’t know the specifics, I’m obviously not very scientific, but I suddenly started to notice this anxiety in myself as well. Lisa then said that it should be passing soon. I sort of doubted that not thinking this little stress ball would ever leave, but then these past couple days it’s as if the world righted itself and my inner argument has finally subsided. All is in peace. Out of nowhere. Not sure if any of that makes sense. It does to me. My theory is that it’s the change in the seasons. We instinctually cling to the world we know and when the weather and daylight patterns start whipping us around, our heads start to spin. Now that I fully feel as if fall is here I just want to jump up and hug all those glorious colors. I want to skip down the street.

My other theory on feeling in balance is exercising, working hard at work- you know not feeling like a slacker, focusing on the good in people, listening to a good album and returning from a camping trip. Maybe there is truth in the work life balance. Maybe there is truth in the work hard play hard. Maybe there is truth in good music. Either way, I’m digging it. I want to keep the steady going.

Currently listening to The Paper Kites -Featherstone. My cousin Lorin made a video with that song and I can’t get it out if my head since! I made this little quote thing to go along with a lyric from the song

Birthday/Camping

Wow, this is long over due.  Here I was looking for the post I did on camping back in July.  Turns out, I didn’t post one.  To summarize, my mom came up to visit for my birthday which was just perfect.  We had a Thursday all to ourselves, walked all over the city, Mission Beach Cafe in the morning for breakfast (NO LINE!!) then we meandered down Valencia, stopped at Tartine, because there was NO LINE!! we picked up some bread pudding and this meringue thing I love so much, we walked past birite, searching for a pie needed for the family camping trip, no luck.  This brought us right past bi-rite ice cream though, and since it was my birthday I was all, who cares if we just had brunch and have bread pudding in a doggy bag we are getting ice cream yo, because again NO LINE!!.  So we walked up to the top of Dolores park, for the view.  We talked about this and that, pondering on where we would end up next when all of a sudden I said RUN, bc the J came and I knew our legs were tired and there was a pie shop with our name on it.  My mom, so proud of her, didn’t even hesitate just ran right with me.  Turns out the pie shop had the pie we needed. WIN.  After this long adventure we napped before indian food for dinner.  Family came, it was precious.  Then we went home early because we all had to get ready for camping the next day.  Which leads me into part 2, but first, a commercial break.

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these mimosas were huge. Just how we like ‘em.

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these ladies worked at cooks in a restaurant near by, they just happened to be on a lunch break. Loved the scene

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Camping was fun.  I can’t do a summary, because a) I lost my phone for 3/8ths of the visit.  I loved camping so much that I thought, eh who needs a phone.  ME, I was the one that said that.  The one who takes one bagillion photos of the same damn leaf.  This spot was so perfect, a big beautiful lake, boats to rent, islands to swim to and on the other side of the highway were pot holes to hike and swim in.  So much fun was had I can’t even get into the details.  Spending time with family while camping is now at the top of my list. Something about allowing everyone to do what they want but all be near by is so comforting.  20 people, including the dog.  There was always a nook where someone was laughing, others were screaming, others were napping.  Pure magic.  I can’t wait to do it all over again.

My cousin Lorin made this rad video.  Damn she is talented.

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note Jackie’s little lion chair

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Jackie fell back, but don’t worry nobody was harmed in the making of this picture.

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clothes line + tent = heart eyes

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My canoodle partner <3

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we boated over to this private island and we declared it to be called grass island from here on and forever

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How adorable is the committee above.

All the rest of these were taken by Lorin

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we didn’t get the whole gang, but this was the only group shot we took.  Note Kelan’s ensemble

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Stella and bowie silver lake

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Bowie

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hooowww adorable are they?

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Tom in waterfall

chillin in a waterfall :)

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House sitting, birthdays, camping and other related event

We’ve been house sitting slash pet sitting as of lately and I have to say its been so very interesting.  I suppose I’ve never been near home, but not actually have gone home for extended periods of time in, well, ever.  It’s this weird- I know where I am, I know the directions and all the places around, but I am too far from home to just stop over and water the plants or swap out some t-shirts but I’m still close enough that I cooould do it.  Keller and I had these big ambitions.  We thought that a shake in the routine, a good change of scenery would kick our butts into gear and let us unleash the productivity bubble we had been hiding.  Turns out, nope. Just the same.  Actually, it’s not the same, its’s worse!  Ever since we started this house-pet sitting extravaganza I feel like we have lost about 4 to 5 hours a day.  Yes, my mornings are cuh-razy with the kids, but the evenings are wide open, yet I go to bed far too late having not a moment to spare.  Our initial goals, er I mean MY initial goals were to hike, bike, walk, cook, jump full force into illustrator all the while skipping along with normal life.  So far, I’d say we have touched on all of the goals but a very mild easter egg pastel, not a full punch in your face neon like I had hoped. I might blame it on the weather though, 90 degrees does not lend itself to running, hiking or cooking fall soups.  Things might turn around though, we still have time, and I can see a WALL of fog lingering over the hill near by.  It’s been tickling the neighborhood for about an hour now.  Rolling in, rolling out, in, out.  Right now we are on the in.  I’m hoping it cools it down enough to cook some squash.

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evidence of our hike

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isn’t that moss oh so rustic?  It is obviously not evident, but this picture was so awkward to take, but I just had to!  About 20 feet to my right were two highway patrol officers holding 4 boys hostage.  We decided later that they were being held hostage for having BB guns.  I bet those little shits were hitting squirrels and birds :( Let’s not think about it.

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How cute is this lending library in the neighborhood? I wonder what kind of books are in there.  Next time I’m going to take a peak.

Fun fact, I have not taken ONE picture of the kids.  It’s really weird, I love them so much, all their little feathery parts, but I have not taken a picture during this visit.  I have TONS and tons from past visits, but I keep looking at my phone for one and don’t see any.  I attribute it to the lack of time, the missing 4 hours.

Keller and I went to celebrate Stina’s birthday this past weekend.  She turned 30, 30 full swings around the sun – she said.  I agreed with her, 30 was not very much at all.  We camped at Refugio which is this adorable little camp site RIGHT off the highway and RIGHT on the beach.  We scored a huge group spot, and camped to our hearts content.  Apparently camping to my hearts content meant eating s’mores for breakfast.  Don’t judge.   I make a mean s’more only perfected by jumbo marshmallows and andes mints.  Don’t worry I have the step by step perfect s’more instructions.

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adorable I know.

Since we were so close to the beach, Stina and her friends brought a kayak, paddle boards, floaties and goggles.  This was SO FUN.  I tried paddle boarding finally, harder than it looks, but WAY more fun than I ever gave it credit for.  It’s this mix of keeping your muscles tight for balance but completely limber to roll with the water.  The trick is to A) not think about it.  It’s similar to meditation.  The second you think about it, release that thought. Just let it go.. there is no need for the thought of standing on water to enter your mind.  It won’t help you.  and B) look in the distance horizon, beach, surfers, boat, anything but the water in front of you.  You can eventually look below you because that is the coolest part.  Seeing the world below you which was not revealed to you before when you were swimming in it.  Somehow, standing above the water, not roughing it up allows for a clear look down below to the shells, fish and goodies.  All this floating, swinging and laughing chalked itself up to one of the best weekends.  I’m starting to think there is a pattern, whenever I go camping I say out loud several times “this is epic”.  Outside of this camping world, I never use this word.  It is not a word I’m comfortable with throwing around, yet come sleeping bags and apparently breakfast s’mores and you got me practically yelling “eeeeepic”.

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This moment, we were free.  We just let it all go.  On those swings, in that moment we were free.

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Don’t even get me started on the water and how clear it was.

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How adorable is this camp site?  The dude appreciated the fact that we had to back up and take the picture of his campsite.  I got a smile and wave/thumbs up as we went past.

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Here is that s’more I was telling you about.

Anyways, epic times were had and I’m so ever grateful for them.

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Ruby

It’s a real sad moment to lose a pet but even more sad to lose a friend.  Ruby was our family dog, but most importantly was my Mom’s dog and she went to live on brighter, muddy, hilly pastures this past weekend.  She was such a good pup, you know, one of the best.  All smiles, never really complained, except in the early years when she was addicted to blankets and she just HAD to have the blanket thrown on top of her when she was snuggling in.  She loved empty peanut butter jars, long walks and hikes, a good roll in the mud, and would eat anything and everything, even bird poop.  She hated the beach, in fact don’t even think about bringing her to the beach, that would just be rude.   Anyways, this was a hard one.  One of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced, but I’d do it a thousand times over if I could relieve my mom of just an ounce of pain.  Sweet mama lost her best friend.  Thats a tear jerker in itself.  Ruby, I hope you are running fast, eating all the peanut butter, laying in the hot warm spots, sleeping on all the couches you were never allowed, and thoroughly enjoying every moment.  You sure are missed.

My aunt and I went down to join my sister and be with mom on this hard weekend.  To be her rock when she needed it and to revel in the beautiful life Ruby had the privilege of leading. Even though we were visiting  on the very sad circumstances, it was one of the best weekends.  We all just sat around with the whole family, talking, napping in each others pretense, drinking margaritas and just hanging out with each other.  No to-do list, no expectations, no plans, just being with each other was all we wanted and it was all we needed. It felt real good to be in that glow of people you love.  I miss everyone so much already, but am glad I got to say goodbye to my friend, and be there in those hard times.

 

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